Lana's Smokefree Journal — Day 4

My fourth day being smokefree. It has been horrible. It all began yesterday, May 31st. I was so happy to not have to smoke May 31st (I never smoked a May 31st and never will), but I was really stressed. Even though, I remembered that smoking would stress me even more. Lucky me, if I smoked, I'd be much more stressed!
But then my stupidness came. When the stress was gone, I began to revisit old vintage cigarette ads... Stupid me. I chose a brand to buy today (tomorrow), just because of the advertisment. I wanted to smoke again, poor me.
And today, I went to the shop and I bought a pack of Winstons. Lucky me. I was about to light one up, but the lighter didn't work. And I didn't smoke it. If the lighter had worked, I'd be a smoker again. Lucky me.
And now, I'm with my dad, and he likes me to smoke, so I'm really pissed off because he allows me to smoke in his home... But I survived. Then I went to the American Cancer Society page, and my cravings disapeared.

I'm so happy I didn't smoke today!

I really am. I have more cravings than never, but if I survived to today, I'll survive to tomorrow. I won't smoke again. Tomorrow, I'll just throw everything to the trash. Yes, I will. I didn't want to for some stupid reason (e.g., I'll fail and I'll have to buy everything again), but now I will. The other times I failed I didn't last more than a day. Now I've lasted 4 days and going.

I'M SO HAPPY I DON'T HAVE TO SMOKE NEVER AGAIN!

So then, why would I want to have a pack of cigarettes, a cigarette box, a rolling tobacco box, a rolling machine and a lighter? A non-smoker doesn't have those things. Let's throw them!

TIP FOR THE NEW EX-SMOKER: Throw everything away. An ex-smoker doesn't have cigarettes, lighters... Why would you want to have them then?